October 13, 2011 at 10:53 am · Filed under Dancing, Emotional, Events, self
Did you guys watch the UAAP CDC 2011 last 17th of September?
I did on TV and it was crazzzzy! I’ve seen all the school’s performances but I think there was none more anticipating than the UST SALINGGAWI dance troupe!!
Ow alright, I’m biased ~ heee. It’s been years already since I performed for the UAAP CDC and I must say those repeat championship years were just so glorious! And although UST didn’t win this year, they are really at the top of their game. Btw, this year’s theme was all about faith and UST’s 400th birthday. I don’t give a crap what others are saying about UST ~ sometimes things just don’t work out the way you had hoped them to be but I’ve always believed in God and in my school so a very traditional theme is right up my alley. :]
Don’t worry guys, things will turn around, maybe we’ll get the crown next year. HAVE FAITH!
Anyway, I got really emotional when I started seeing old pictures again to reminisce those glory years…
Heard that the UAAP CDC 2012 will be held at the SM MOA Arena! Maaan I’m so watching!
♥ siD
September 16, 2010 at 5:12 pm · Filed under Emotional, Photography, Photomanipulation
Clothes by Get Laud! Philippines
Shoes by Manels
Photoshop CS5
There are really days when I feel so out of myself. I guess it’s safe to say that’s okay and that it’s good to go out of your box and think outside of it sometimes. Today is the same old Thursday of the week, however; I get up at 5 am, brush my teeth, eat my breakfast and go to work. Sometimes also I eat lunch by myself and today I did that (and I kind of like it) .
This was produced not out of boredom alone, but out of this little heavy breathing I’m feeling at the moment. It is temporary. Trust me. It’s not like I can’t close my eyes to THAT. But we all wish we could close our eyes to things we don’t want to see, but why is it that we can’t close our eyes for feelings we don’t want to feel? Why does it start to get hurt the moment you begin to care.
In other news: I use some techniques to achieve this style of photo manipulation. I pay a lot of attention to details, color, dress, and theme. I don’t have any inspiration for this one though; I inspire myself I guess. Usually, it’s my feelings that play a major part in helping me create my craft. It’s no magic, just pure product of my emotions.
Also, as you will notice, I dyed the ends of my hair into burgundy red. Red symbolizes strong emotions, blood, love and passion. You get the picture as to why I’m less perky today. But hey, no worries people.
I currently want to be more creative, to have that ability to think and make or see or hear something that did not exist before. Yes, that. I want that.
Credits:
.dirty fingers. film texture ~miss-Alienation
Parched ~struckdumb
texture by ~Adaae-stock
♥ siD
July 9, 2010 at 2:17 pm · Filed under Emotional, love, self
Funny, just a few years ago, I could not imagine myself in a heartbreak situation. I don’t want to believe it’s all karma.. I would say I’m never at my best when it comes to relationships. Maybe things happen to force us to learn from our wrongdoings. That’s just the way it is. I want to say a lot. But not right now. Everything seem to want to spark off hundreds of other emotions.
Having recently seen this note in my documents, I thought it would be a total miss to not share it to my circle of dear readers, as it is totally warming and filled with deep thoughts.
Oprah wrote this about men.
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If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”.
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. Don’t settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.”
You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…
even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending…compromise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships…there is nothing cute about baggage…
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you…
a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals…
look for someone complimentary…
not supplementary.
Dating is fun…
even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes…
when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him
- he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother’s house.
Never co-sign for a man.
Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others..
June 18, 2010 at 8:04 am · Filed under Emotional
As I grow older, I realize that secretly harboring mixed feelings for a person has its disadvantages after all. Life hasn’t been rosy these days, my object of affection and I are in a routine that’s against-all-odds and I hate it. Well, since hate is a very abusive word, maybe the proper term with all this melodrama is “dislike”. *sigh* Happiness, why must you torture me so? All of a sudden you are gone, and now I’m having these emotional twists that I can’t control. At the end of the day it comes off as a little misunderstanding that sometimes it gets even more complicated. How can you understand a person? If you don’t understand yourself? It’s not even happy weekend yet but I’m feeling really frail right now. Or at least the beginning of the frail/unhappy phase. SIGH. This is not so me.
Oh hello SADNESSS! I “dislike” you. please leave me alone.
~siD
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